From time to time I stumble across some old friend's profiles. I guess I'm not the kind of person to keep in contact with those from my past, because I didn't have any strong friendship with anyone. And it's a little superficial to be like "Hey!! I miss you!!! Let's hang out soon!" when we weren't even close friends.

You know, even though there's this friend that I dislike so darn much, I always ALWAYS have dreams about her. For so many times, it's actually has become uncountable. I think if I were to die tml, that would be something that I'll always regret; this friendship. I don't know, or rmb, whose fault was it, or if it's even our faults at all, for how our friendship turned out. (Ok, fine, I rmb the blog fights..)Maybe we just were not meant to be friends. Honestly, we were just so different. The typical ah lian and a "follower". *roll eyes*

I'm pretty sure she still dislike me, from the way we ended our school year then with me not even in her bothering her in the slightest way for 2 years. How can someone dislike another with such passion and devotion, seemingly without a cause, I would never know. I think I'll probably die not knowing (and to be honest, I don't really know if I would want to hear it).

Now that I think about it, I think since that friendship I hadn't even tried to be friends with those around me. I guess if I were to find an excuse, then it'll surely be "I was too young then". And I do think that it's because of that, we were young and we don't think properly of our consequences. And after that, we were afraid to fix it. This year I did what I felt like I should during graduation (or after..), and (tried to) made sure that grudges are not beared. Sometimes, an honest heart to try and fix things is all that's needed. ‪#‎superlongessay‬‪#‎sayitbeforeyouregret‬

Sounds like a relationship gone wrong.. lol Reminds me TSwift's "I knew you were trouble".

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